My first letter is to you. Don’t get me wrong, I have wrote many letters to you in my head for a number of years. I even wrote a few down and threw them away. The amount of times I have wanted to come and talk to you is unreal. Everytime I see you, or think about you, my heart remembers what it was like to love you, and have you love me in return. The amount of times I have seen you from across the room, and, you look sad. Is that because of me? Or am I being vain here?
The first time I saw you, you where in your little world, at the time you where just a stranger on the train. I was with my friends, you was with yours. One thing I do remember is quite odd, I remember you looked at me, although I suppose I was staring at you. When you looked at me, you gave me a little smile, it felt like we where the only people on the train, and that was the first time you smied at me. I could never have guessed you where going to be getting off the same stop as me. Let alone staying in the same hotel. Every time I saw you that weekend I couldn’t take my eyes off you, I even felt really jealous when you went to hang with a female friend. Why? It wasn’t like you where my boyfriend or anything.
Do you remember the first time I told you that I love you? It was probably the most embarrassing moment in my life. It must have been an hour or so after I met you, I felt like a right idiot after, I honestly thought you would have thought I was a weirdo. It seemed you didn’t think that. That Saturday, we had a laugh, and you ended up staying in my hotel room, though we where in different beds. I was trying to work up the courage to get in bed with you, but I was so tired I fell asleep. I regretted that decision at the time, but I didn’t know that eventually I wouldn’t, although I have wondered what would have happened if I did climb into bed with you.
Once that weekend had ended and we parted ways, I honestly never thought I would ever see you again. Then fate hit me again. About a week later I ran up a $300 phone bill. If I am correct, we where on the phone 8 hours straight! We just didn’t run out of things to say! We spoke about all sorts of things, from music to books we liked, the amount of things we found that we had in common was very surprising. Once it became about 6am, we decided to call it a night, but in that conversation, we decided to meet. I thought my luck would have changed, we arranged I would be staying at your house for a few nights, no matter how excited I was about it, I honestly thought it would be too good to be true, and thought I wouldn’t be staying at yours. I should have known better. I went to yours for a few days with no change of clothes, I should have gone home first.
We met up with friends the day we where leaving for yours, we had a good day. That afternoon we got the train to yours, that was when we had our first kiss. When we kissed, it felt like the whole world just stopped, I forgot that there where others around us, let alone a world around us.
By that Christmas, I was pinching myself, I was living with the man of my dreams. Whenever I looked at you, I saw my future king, and I was your future queen. To me, the flaws you think you have are the things I love most, and all the flaws I see in myself where what you loved most about me. Every day you treated me like I was a princess, and I felt like one too, I even believed I was your one and only, like you are mine. I am glad now, that at the time, I had no idea what was in store for us in the future, because at that time, I believed in love at first sight.
Yours always.
Smurf ❤
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Artist – Simple Plan
Song – I’d Do Anything
Reason;
In a whole, I feel this song describes how our relationship was, and how I feel, as I feel “this could be the one last chance, to make you understand.” Also, Mark from Blink 182 is in the song, what is not to love?
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