I have been trying for months to get hold of you. I even resorted to email, which came back ‘Unable to Send’. I have litrally tried everything. So I am turning to this.
You are my best friend, and mean the world to me, there was nothing we would keep from each other, or at least that is what I thought. The day you stopped talking to me, you told me it was because you couldn’t forgive me for the past. What was I supposed to do? Abort the child that turned out not to be yours?
I am sorry.
I cannot stress enough how sorry I am. I love you, I always will, as my best friend, nothing more. I wanted it to be more, but you broke my heart, you looked me in the eye and said you didn’t love me. You broke up with me when i was 4 months pregnant because your parents told you to. Yet you tell one of my other best friends that you stopped talking to me because you still love me? If that isn’t confusing, i don’t know what is. All I want is the truth from you, and a chance to explain myself.
You was always there when I needed you most, and I need you now. When I said I thought our relationship was a joke, I never ment it like it came across. I was scared, and paranoid. I held onto the past, I see that now, I told you because I believed you deserved the truth. You treated me so well, even saw my daughter as your own. I know she ment the world to you, and it was written all over your face that it broke your heart when you found out she wasn’t yours. I knew you would never forgive me for cheating on you, but lets go back. You wasn’t perfect, you was doing things you never should have. I am not excusing what I did, there is no excuse for that, but please find it in your heart to forgive me. Think of all those times we had fun, think of all of our inside jokes, think of al those times we got drunk. Please, remember the good times.
But most of all.
Please contact me.
I want to tell you how grown up my little girl is, tell you how big she is, tell you how much I miss the times we hung out. I miss you. I look at old pictures and wish you where in the new ones. Her Steelers jersey hangs in my wardrobe, she has had it on and looks adorable in it!
I honestly don’t know what else to put, just wish I could talk to you.