After re-reading “Love Drunk” I feel I need to clear something up.
At the beginning, I felt like it was all my fault. Maybe you should look in a mirror. You turned into a border lined wife beater. I sat here writing 3 longs how I felt like it was all my fault. Not I can see it all in black and white, I sit here pining over my regret. When in actual fact, my guilt is all I feel for you now. I sit my arse in bad relationships feeling like I have to as punishment for what I did to you. When in actual fact, the first time I actually properly did something for myself in our relationship was LEAVING YOU.
I fucking loved you, more than I loved anyone in the whole world. Then you have the cheak to call me every name under the sun when I break up with you. Grow the fuck up dude! Take the advice you tried to give me; stop sulking, the world does not evolve around you.
You know, at first at cons, I would avoid you becasue just seeing you would make me want to cry. The last time I saw you, I apologised to you for everything. Then you started showing off. What are you? A spoiled brat? Don’t get me wrong, to me you where amazingly attractive, now you are ugly as sin, your personality is ugly.
God I hope your poor girlfriend doesn’t go through the shit you put me through. I went from being happy, hyper, flirty smurf, to obedient, shy, recluse, and scared. I do not think you realise how petrified I was of you?
I had people telling me to leave you because they could see what you where doing to me. It has been nearly 5 years since we broke up. I AM FINALLY OVER YOU!
Now, to add some lyrics;
– Now you’ll never see, what you’ve done to me, you can take back your memories, they’re no good to me. Here’s all your lies, you can look me in the eyes, with the sad sad look that you wear so well.
– I won’t miss, all of the fighting that we always did, take it in, I mean what I say, when I say there is nothing left.
– I used to bite my tounge and hold my breath, scared to rock the boat and make a mess, so I sat quietly, agree politely, I guess that I forgot I had a choice, I let you push me past the breaking point, I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything. (Wish I could write all the lyrics, but fuck it, all the song, just listen to Katy Perry – Roar)
It is weird. I feel so light.
You definitely taught me a lesson though. So thank you for that.
No longer under your control….
~ Smurf
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Artist; The All-American Rejects
Song; Gives You Hell
Reason; The song says it all. ‘Truth be told I miss you. Truth be told, I’m lying’